Oswald Chambers has always been difficult to understand . . . until a few days ago.
Ye Are Not Your Own
Why shouldn't we go through heartbreaks? Through those doorways God is opening up ways of fellowship with His Son. Most of us fall and collapse at the first grip of pain; we sit down on the threshold of God's purpose and die away of self-pity, and all so called Christian sympathy will aid us to our death bed. But God will not. He comes with the grip of the pierced hand of His Son, and says--'Enter into fellowship with Me; arise and shine.' If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, then thank Him for breaking your heart.
. . . though He slay me, yet will I trust Him . . .
God never crushes a man's will into surrender, He never beseeches him, He waits until the man yields up his will to Him.
The Consciousness of the Call
If a man or woman is called of God, it does not matter how untoward circumstances are, every force that has been at work will tell for god's purpose in the end. If you agree with God's purpose He will bring not only your conscious life, but all the deeper regions of your life which you cannot get at, into harmony.
Don't Think Now, Take the Road
"And Peter . . . walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid."The wind was actually boisterous, the waves were actually high, but Peter did not see them at first. He did not reckon with them, he simply recognized his Lord and stepped out in recognition of Him, and walked on the water. Then he began to reckon with the actual things, and down he went instantly . . . We step right out on God over some things, then self-consideration enters in and down we go. If you are recognizing your Lord, you have no business with where He engineers your circumstances. The actual things ARE, but immediately you look at them you are overwhelmed, you cannot recognize Jesus, and the rebuke comes . . .If you debate for a second when God has spoken, it is all up. Never begin to say--"Well, I wonder if He did speak?" Be reckless immediately, fling it all out on Him. You do not know when His voice will come, but whenever the realization of God comes in the faintest way imaginable, recklessly abandon. It is only by abandon that you recognize Him. You will only realize His voice more clearly by recklessness.
Success isn't whether you're famous or dirt poor . . . true success is following God wholeheartedly. A backwoods hillbilly can be the most successful man if he's doing what God wants :)
God is working in my life in huge ways right now. Trying to figure out what God wants me to do for school is the most pressing issue on my heart. Should I stay where I am right now? Or give up life as I know it, move to the other side of the country and go to school for Compassion Ministry (counseling)? One offers a slight feeling of security even though I'd be living amidst current storms. The other offers freedom from storms, yet a total and complete sacrifice of my way of life, hopes, dreams, and ambitions.
Anyways, Chambers gave me a kick in the spiritual pants. Giving up isn't an option. God never said things would be easy. It should be a pleasure to share the teensiest piece of pain that He went through.
Love the ones who push you away.